I've had a few men lately, but nothing seems to be satisfying my addiction.
So I've adopted a new habit. Porn!
I have been watching more porn then I ever have before. I do have an affinity for guy on guy, so there is the gay twink porn. I enjoy petite pale women, so there is the gothic alternative lesbian porn. Though my all time favorite porn would have to be solo masturbation. I'm some what of a voyeur as I've mentioned before, and I really get off on watching a hot loner masturbating. It probably feeds into my rape fantasy that I described in the
female fantasies forum. Considering I almost always imagine myself walking into the room where they are masturbating, and taking them, willing or not.
I'm so glad other people have the rape fantasy and I know it now, because I was always so very very ashamed of it.
I know right? Me? Ashamed? confusing, yes. But true.
I had an interesting tag team that included my metal head ex boyfriend and his room mate - my black friend, my first taste of chocolate if you will. I've never before had a black man, and after that, I was almost positive I would never again take a colored man to my bed. It was awful. He was far too big, I don't find dark skin attractive, and not all that skilled for the absurd amount of women he claims to have had. I was almost positive, until last weekend when my half black friend from my favorite local band came over.
And now I'm sure. Never again will I enjoy the flavor of dark meat. Oh, and a news flash, maybe Scene boy is coming home?
